This morning I ran 4 miles, which isn't such a huge thing (can't believe I'm saying that!) except it was with two people who have gone through "team in training" and completed marathons. Overall, I finished faster than usual because we didn't take walk breaks the way I typically do. Although the course was mainly flat, it was an amazing workout for me because of the slightly faster pace with fewer points of slowing down. I even sprinted the last few seconds just to push myself.

Most of the "pushing myself" these days has been work-related, though. It has been horrifically chaotic, which means that clients who are used to having me essentially at their beck and call haven't gotten such immediate responses, which frustrates them. Meanwhile, the clients who only have requests seasonally think "Hey, I never ask her for anything, so she needs to jump when I do!" Add together a mix of the former and latter types of clients, many of whom want something that they believe will "just take five minutes" and I'm not pleasing anyone no matter how hard I work. Of course, making the paid work a priority means that the kitchen is dirty, the laundry isn't clean, and I'm not looking over my boys' shoulders as they do their homework. Plenty of people have made it clear that I'm simply not living up to their expectations.